Hello, I am Aria of Wisdom Library.
I am documenting the process of shedding my social persona through Saju-myeongri and humanistic reflection in search of a life that is truly my own. As the first entry of this record, I would like to share the story of why I, as an engineer, came to study Saju, which I once dismissed as superstition.
Saju is Pseudoscience
To be honest, Saju was nothing but a 'superstition' to me. As an engineer who took logical proof based on rational evidence for granted, Saju, which determines a person's fate based on their time of birth, seemed to belong to the realm of the unscientific.
I thought it was utterly nonsensical to categorize people solely by their birth time; if that were true, the lives of people born at the exact same moment should be nearly identical, yet they are not. In fact, I had a friend in school with the same birthday as me, but our life trajectories were worlds apart—unlike me, who was driven by academic achievement, that friend had no interest in studying. Seeing another 'birthday mate' at work with a completely different disposition only made my skepticism toward Saju even more entrenched.
Living Diligently, but Not Happy
I studied and worked hard to join a prestigious company. My meticulous personality led me to scrutinize my interests and aptitudes, weighing the company’s vision, work culture, and compensation package before making my choice.
Yet, I wasn't happy. The reason eluded me. The only certainty was my profound lack of satisfaction with my current life. I had been convinced that landing the job would mark the start of a stable, happy life, but that reality never materialized. It was incomprehensible why a result could be so unsatisfying despite making rational decisions while accounting for every possible variable. I was annoyed, frustrated, angry, and felt a sense of injustice.
People often turn to Saju consultations or New Year's fortunes in these moments, don't they?. So I thought, "Why not give it a try?". I didn't have high expectations—in fact, I doubted it would help—but I went in "just in case". I reasoned that if people were willing to pay for it, there had to be something to it. Even if it were mere superstition, I felt it was more rational to possess even 1% of data to help decode the complex entity that is "me" rather than operating in total ignorance.
My Introduction to Saju — And the Return of Skepticism
Over the years, I gradually explored everything from phone consultations to street stalls and Saju cafes. But the results always left me with a lingering sense of unease. While the general personality assessments seemed fairly accurate, the short-term predictions regarding timing—like when I would part ways with a boyfriend or land a new job—mostly failed to hit the mark.
Ultimately, I felt Saju was just a pseudoscience for entertainment, incapable of providing a practical guide for life. Concluding it was merely a waste of money, I distanced myself from it once again.
Maybe It's Not Pseudoscience..?
A few years later, while contemplating a transition to freelancing and re-exploring my aptitudes, I happened to come across a Saju video on YouTube. This time, Saju felt different. The reason was that it wasn't about passively listening to a one-sided result; instead, it was a process where I personally looked up my Manse-ryeok (Bazi chart) and followed the analysis while examining my own Saju configuration. Through this, I encountered the rationale behind Saju interpretation for the first time.
나의 성향들이 사주에서 그대로 확인된다는 것이 신기했습니다. 단순히 ‘그럴싸한 이야기’였다면 뻔한 위로라 생각하며 넘겼을 텐데, 다른 사주에 대한 해석을 보면 명확히 ‘내가 아닌’ 이야기였기 때문에 여덟 글자의 한자 조합이 만들어내는 나만의 고유한 해석이라는 점이 특히 합리적이라고 느껴졌습니다. 제가 경험한 삶의 굴곡들이 타고난 기운의 구조와 대운의 흐름 속에서 기인했다는 설명을 접할 때는 묘한 해방감마저 느껴졌습니다
Let’s Verify it
Since then, I have occasionally studied Saju through books and YouTube. However, the materials found in popular books or on YouTube were mostly fragmented, and because each instructor emphasized different points, it was difficult to find a consistent thread of interpretation. I wanted to understand the system more systematically and thoroughly.
Ultimately, I decided to learn it for myself. Even if Saju turns out to be a flawed hypothesis, I judged this study to be a worthwhile 'intellectual investment' given that there were few alternatives for navigating life more wisely. Even if my own research eventually leads me to the conclusion that it is unscientific, I felt that I could only speak to myself with confidence if that conclusion was one I reached through my own inquiry, rather than simply relying on the interpretations of others.
Currently, I have enrolled in a formal Saju educational institution and begun my journey with the goal of obtaining certification. Through this series, I will candidly share the insights and questions I discover along the way.
📂 Wrap-up (Summary)
| Category | Previous Thought (Engineering Mindset) | Changed Thought (Humanistic Perspective) |
| View on Life | Life can be 100% controlled through effort and design. | 통제할 수 없는 ‘운의 흐름’이 존재한다 |
| View on Saju | It is a superstition full of statistical errors | It is a sophisticated simulation tool for interpreting myself. |
| Happiness | Happiness is the byproduct of achievement. | Happiness begins when I understand the essence of my existence. |
💡 I recommend this series to:
- Office workers who live diligently but always feel an unexplained emptiness in a corner of their hearts.
- Those who don't necessarily want to believe in Saju, but keep facing lingering questions about life.
- “나는 왜 이렇게 사는가?”에 대한 근본적인 답을 찾고 싶은 분
- ‘진짜 나’를 찾는 과정에서 객관적인 도구가 필요한 분